Existentialism

"Your life lacks definition. It is meaningless. Life is absurd." These were the first ideas pumped into my head about existentialism. It has always been a complex subject for me because it raises many questions and clashes with the thought of religion. In existentialism, a person supposedly defines themselves and gains their own self moral and self worth not relying on society's standards. Everyone, each individual is suppose to remain an individual having their own thoughts, concepts and values , not relying on the outside world. For me, being religious, I believe that essence precede existence in the fact that God has a plan for our lives and that is to live by His word so when we die we go to Heaven.
On the topic of death it is,I feel, another complex topic in existentialism. Many people wonder, if I am suppose to define my life why was I made in the first place? They may also say, Life is full of heartache, tragedy, and disappointments and then eventually I die, Why live now? Then the topic of suicide comes in. People know death is inevitable though sometimes we forget and think we are immortal. Though we don't ponder about death 24/7 when it does come to mind it is a scary and nerve racking thought. It becomes so nerve racking that people take death into their own hands and commit suicide. Another reason why people may commit suicide is that in the process of trying to "define" their lives they hit an obstacle that seems to be never ending or people may think that they have done putting definition to their lives just to have that one thing be taken away. My opinion on existentialism is that i is a gloomy and depressing subject that has a few points that are true in my eyes. I do believe that people have their own truth and they live that truth through their actions; even though society may take a persons truth and distort it making people think that what they hold as true is really their truth but it isn't, it is society's truth. Also, I believe that we have to make decisions in life and are granted that freedom, but that is for a later entry.